Feb. 25th, 2017
When I try to think of all the gospel-centered lessons I
learned this week, there are almost too many to count. I definitely did not
expect some of these things to occur, but overall, heavenly Father is always
working to answer our prayers when we seek out the answers!
It kind of all started in Relief Society this past Sunday. I
had made a comment about prayers and our relationship with Heavenly Father, and
my visiting teacher decided to counter comment on that by saying that she was
impressed with the way I prayed – like I was talking to Heavenly Father as a
real person, and we were just having a conversation together. I was fascinated
by this outlook, because I hadn’t really known that I prayed in a slightly
different manner than most people, and I realized that I was super comfortable
with Heavenly Father. This came to mean a lot the following day – I had to know
my standing with God and how I felt about my own self-worth as I spoke to a
friend in need about some of my coping mechanisms here on earth in a fallen
state. And they all work because of my relationship with Heavenly Father. So
this lead me to wonder…
…what should our relationship with Heavenly Father look
like?
What a perfect time to wonder, as we skimmed over good King
Benjamin’s words at the beginning of Mosiah in Book of Mormon this week. He does
this cute thing where he tells the people that they are less than the dust of
the earth in comparison to God, and that we’re nothing. He’s everything. My
self-esteem as a child of God was called into question for a second, but this
is where another lovely viewpoint of Benjamin comes into play, in Mosiah 4 –
the knowledge of God’s goodness is what truly should make us feel like nothing
and be happy about it. We need to “believe in Him and that He is” in order to
truly start to align our plan with His. That seems really backwards to me, but
it says that the people were so happy and pleased by his mercy. It’s making me
wonder what other aspects of my relationship with God need to be developed.
While I think it’s definitely a good thing to feel like Heavenly Father is
truly my father that I can tell anything to, there’s something else that I
learned I want to develop: a sense of awe and reverence; a reality of what God
truly has done for me. This reminds me of something that I had almost
completely forgotten about – on my mission, I had the chance to hear a Muslim
pray, and I was blown away by the amount of awe and respect that this man had
for God, while still talking to him like a person. There was a type of humility
and understanding there that I just don’t quite possess yet. I want to treat
Heavenly Father the way he deserves to be treated, and along the way, I’ll
develop a stronger understanding of who and what He is. I hope that I can begin
to apply what I have learned here, because as Benjamin begins his close, he
says that if we believe these things, “see that ye do them.”