How Great Is our God?

Feb. 18^th, 2017

How great is our Heavenly Father?!

This week, so many miracles have occurred, and almost all of them have ties back to a times that I thought were slightly disastrous and frustrated my life. Little things pop into my head that I attribute to the spirit, and to me, the fact that heavenly Father cares about each of us so individually touches my heart. I just love him.

This week, I listened to a talk that meant a lot to me at the time it was given – President Henry B. Eyring’s talk, “Where two or three are gathered,” is from the April 2016 General Conference (give it a read or a listen-to!). It’s almost been a year since I was at that point in life, and looking at the things that lead me there, this talk was a turning point. I was curious to see just how exactly it had lead me to where I am now.

I realize that might not make a lot of sense, but It’s time to be very real here: I was in a very dark place almost a year ago, battling what felt like a losing battle with mental illness while on my mission. It lead to some major faith crises where I just felt like nothing and felt nothing. This talk led me to sob – Heavenly Father was everywhere, and while I was stuck doing what I could to draw nearer to him, I wasn’t feeling anything. I was my own worst enemy, attacking faith at every chance, while I was trying to preach to those around me the goodness of God! It was hard, but obviously a change needed to happen: and boy, did change come. I still struggled a lot with Heavenly Father, but at least I wasn’t completely abandoned as I strived to see the answers given to me. It’s still been a little difficult to find those answers, as I still work on recovering, but I couldn’t be more grateful for the ways I have changed and learned to recognize Heavenly Father’s hand in my life.

That leads me to fast forward to this point in life. On a seemingly unrelated note, I focused on the way that I prayed with Heavenly Father. I felt that my relationship wasn’t quite as strong as it should be, so I needed to step it up. I often lament that the medication I’m taking doesn’t allow me to feel things like the spirit, so I took a chance and followed the counsel of an apostle – I let my guard down a bit and gave Heavenly Father what I had through prayer. I just want to testify that He never abandons us, we just have to seek for Him. He and the Savior live, and they are doing all they can to ensure that we keep our ears pealed and our hearts open for the whisperings of the spirit. He will help us realize so much more about ourselves and about why the trials we go through help us grow. I’m only just starting to learn a few of those answers from what happened almost a year ago, but when we make the worship of Heavenly Father a central point in our lives, he takes what we have and runs with it.

So yes, He is very great indeed.

Link to Pres. Eyring's talk - https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2016/04/where-two-or-three-are-gathered?lang=eng